Okay...i saw Cassandra and Alfred today morning just before going to school. Hmmm we talked for a while. Then i went to school. We didnt do or rather study much in school today. After the morning assembly, us sec4E and 5N had to go to the hall for a briefing. Because of that, we missed like 45 minutes of E Maths lesson. After E Maths was POA. Ms Goh had to go off for i dont know what as usual. WHATS NEW?

Then it was recess. This time, Nishaa and i stayed in class with Ramyaa, Deniece, Yvonne Oh and Lan Yun. Hehe was fun luh. Then it was English and Social Studies after recess. Then..we practiced for the class dance for teachers day which is tomorrow. We had lunch - Yin Qing, Yuling, Yvonne Oh, Lan Yun, Ligeng, Lee Yee, Nishaa and i. After that we had like two rounds of teachers day rehearsal. Started at 3.30pm. Ended at 6.48pm. ARGH! Okay..was fun luh actually. So exciting! Hahas..a few of the other class performances were nice too. My class is dancing for the Crazy Frog song. The video clip is somewhere in my blog.

After the rehearsal, Nishaa and i quickly left school to avoid the crowd. At the Mama shop, i saw Brenda...On the way to the bus stop, Vijayan's cousin, Dinesh talked to me. This was how the conversation went:
Dinesh : Vijayan left school already ah?
Me: Ya, he left school quite long ago.
Dinesh: Oh...
Me: Hey whats your name ah?
Dinesh: Dinesh.
Me: Ohh okay...
Dinesh: Hey dont mind i ask you ah...are you attached?
Me: No..
Dinesh: Oh..so you dont mind if i ask you for stead la?
Me: I dont even know you...
Dinesh: What if you get to know me?
Me: Haha..see how lah...
Dinesh: OK...Eh! Dont tell Vijayan ah...
Me: OK
Dinesh: Bye!
Me: Bye!

Haha WEIRD lah! When Nishaa and i alighted from the bus at North Point's bus interchange, we went shoppinh for about an hour. Haha i bought for Nishaa a black shirt from Espirit. Then at the market near our house, i bought a new shoe. Yeps thats about it. I need to meet Nishaa at 6am under my block tomorrow. So yeah..see ya!

10:38 PM; unforgotten.Y

Right now..i should be sleeping and getting enough energy for myself for school tomorrow..BUT...instead, i found myself crying. And i had some flashbacks. They are all about Pradeep. I miss him terribly...yet..i hate him for what he did to me. Then again, i cant blame him. He said he hates me cause i threatened Michelle( his gf) when we were in sec 2. Truth is ... I DID'NT! Why would anyone say that i did? I mean..im the one who gets bullied. I dont bully others. Im not that kinda girl! REALLY!!! This Friday would be the second last day. Then his N levels will start. The probability of seeing him is like 1%? This sucks. I want to talk to him. But how? The VERY LAST day i would see him is on the 10 of October 2007. GRADUATION DAY. SIGH! I feel so freaking upset. I keep having these flashbacks about him whenever i get upset. And then i realise...im upset because of him. I may look like im okay. I may joke around and smile alot. I may be like a clown. But all that is on the outside. Who ever said im the same on he inside. IM NOT! Im freaking crushed and depressed. I feel like ive been torn apart. Imagine having to love somone for four years! I said this before and ill say it again: I SWEAR, I CAN NEVER LOVE ANYONE THE SAME. Those are words i really mean. Yes i may be crushing on my new eye candy...but it isnt the same like how it was like with Pradeep. Now, he belongs to Michelle. She used to be my best friend. Then she used to be my friend. She LIED to me. Just to get my friendship. But why? Why not let the truth out? Its not like i mean anything to you right?

12:23 AM; unforgotten.Y

Hellooooooo!
Okay yesterday's Social Studies was easy but the Chemistry paper was UBER DIFFICULT lah! After the paper, Nishaa, Priyaa, Lois and i went to Sunplaza to have lunch. After that Lois and i went to the library while Nishaa and Priyaa went to buy more food. LOLS. Then i went home.

Today was my Tamil B syllabus prelim paper 1 and 2. I didnt know i had to be in school by 8.25am. I thought i only needed to be in school by 9am. 15 minutes before the paper starts. Then Mr Tan Chin Huat was like why are you late? Then i said...''I got prelim today''. And he said...''YOU THINK YOUR PRELIM BIG AH?'' Hahahaa damn funny lah..I burst out laughing in front of him. When he turned around i ran away and thus... IM NOT LATE TODAY! Hahaha..
The paper was okay..but...i just hope i dont fail it this time round.

SIGH! Tomorrow school is back to normal because theres no prelim tomorrow. School ends at like 5pm and ive got tuition tomorrow. AHHHHHH!

8:57 PM; unforgotten.Y

7:46 PM; unforgotten.Y

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7:43 PM; unforgotten.Y

Heys all! I did my English paper 1 and 2 and Maths paper 1 prelim today. English was easy. Maths was OKAY...thats a bad sign. Maths was always easy for me ...i can never find myself saying that its OKAY...i need to do MORE PRACTICE!

7:16 PM; unforgotten.Y

A lot has happened. But im kinda lazy to recall everything... Sooo i will just update ya on the lastest things... Yesterday, my sis, dad, vicky, bro and i went to arab street. We had turkish food...''Amirah's food place''. Damn nice luh. It was actually my sister's belated birthday dinner. After dinner, my dad dropped us off at Novena Shopping Centre. My sis didnt want to go home early so we went window shopping, ate Haagen Dasz ice cream at went to Novena church. Then we took bus 851 home. Reached home around 10.40pm.

Today morning, i decided not to go to church. Its that time of the month and boy! Was i having cramps alright! Also, i already went to Novena church yesterday. So i didnt really mind missing mass this week. I was also quite lazy and tired. I really had trouble sleeping yesterday night. Dont know why. Couldnt sleep till like 3am? Sigh...this let to the result of me sleeping till 3pm today. Haha..a little ironical eh?

Yeah thats about it. I didnt do much today. Just slept, woke up, ate, went down to buy food, ate pizza and studied. Tomorrow is my Preliminary examination for English both paper 1 and 2 and Maths paper 1. Im kinda nervous. But Laffyette wished me good luck. Haha not that there is anyhing but he was the first and it made me feel a little better. =)

Anyways, the O levels are really really drawing closer to us each day. Im scared and worried but i also wanna mug like crazy and cant wait for it to be over. Then im gonna sign myself up for MANY MANY courses, meet new friends, and hibernate to make up for what ive lost. Haha..alright..im kinda tired. Hopefully today i can sleep properly. Nights!

11:28 PM; unforgotten.Y

Heys all!

Instead of waking up at 5.45am today, i woke up at 7am instead! Nonono...i wasnt late for school. School only started at 9.15am today. We had mock science practical and they wanted to do it such that it is exactly how it will be when it comes to the O levels. So yeah...the practical for both chemistry and physics started at 10am. It ended at 11.30am. DAMN IT LAH! I think im gonna flunk my physics practical. I did everything correctly BUT....argh! I forgot to minus off the 46cm from all the results i obtained and thus.....even my graph is wrong!. =(((((

After the practical, we did our chemistry mock exam paper while being quarantined till 1.30pm. Then it was lunch till 2.15pm. Lessons resumed. -Physics, power nap, SS and then PE. Todays PE was in AVA room 2. I think its AVA room 3. Anyways, we just watched four short clips and that was it. And...SCHOOL ENDED for the day! Haha i decided to go home first cause i had tuition today. Wah im UBER UBER STRESSED UP NOW. I even felt like crying during tuition when Kumari realised how stressed up i was..

SIGH.. I cant wait for this to be over. BUT OFCOURSE i want this to end with me feeling satisfied. And, im feeling a sense of joy because im stressed. I never used to be and now that i am, it goes to show that im putting in effort and that i care. Last time, i never felt like this. AIYA FUCK IT LAH. Whatever it is, im gonna make it up there. Im gonna make it and prove everyone proud. Im gonna make it and show it to the world especially myself that i am SMART! =)

9:48 PM; unforgotten.Y

Today is the release of the Mother Tongue O Level results. I failed. E8. Its damn demoralising. I feel defeated. I think i wanna give up already. I really cant take this anymore. And yes i need help. I want it desperately but who and how? =( Everyone else around me managed to score distinctions. But why not me? Its not like i didnt work hard at all..i did! SIGH! I feel like i wasted my mums money on tuition. The money that she worked really really hard for. I feel so stupid. And at the moment...as im typing this, i cant stop crying. It really hurts. At first i didnt really care cause i didnt expect to get such a high mark. But i kinda expected at least a c6 or c5. I expected to pass. Yes, i did pass my orals but i flunked the rest of the paper. This really sucks. Before i got the results, i asked HIM if he was nervous and HE was like no and i shook HIS hand and was like welcome to the club. Im not even bothered. And HE said, im not bothered lah but not until like you. Wah like that really hurt my feelings lah. SIGH! And when i got the result, when Mr Teo told me what i got i was like oh okay... After a while, i looked at everyone else and noticed what their reactions were like. People were either crying because they passed really well, or passed but didnt do as well as they had expected to. And i was the only one who failed and sort of had like no reaction on my face. I was still smiling away. As i walked out of school, i told Brenda, Diana, my mum and Kumari my results and i felt really bad. Just all of a sudden. That feeling sucked too. MANY people asked me how i did but i refused to answer everyone. As Thiru, Nishaa, Jannah and i were walking out of school, i suddenly felt emo-ness taking over me. I started to feel really sad. And when i looked at my other fellow indian classmates, i felt even worse. I kept asking myself. Why me? How come this happened to me only? I FEEL SO STUPID! It really does sucks lah. And in the bus, i stood alone emoing to myself. On my way home, in the 811 bus, i teared abit. And when i reached home my sister asked me how i did and i told her i failed and she just went like oh so when are you supposed to retake it again? Walau! I dont have any consolence also. I just went into my room, shut the door, locked it and started to cry till now. And then i realised...i actually wanted to do well for tamil too...=( Im on the verge of giving up. Part of me is ready to fall down on my knees and surrender to the world. The other part still has that little hope. Please god..i need a miracle. Somehow, i just need one.

The only good thing about today was that i think i can definetly pass my English O level orals. It was easy enough...but still...tamil....=(

9:09 PM; unforgotten.Y

7:31 PM; unforgotten.Y

On Friday, 10 of August 2007, i had tuition in the morning. Then Kumari and i went for lunch in Norht Point and we threaded our eyebrows. I have that bitchy look now. Hehe? I met Kejendran at 4pm. He was 20 mins late. We were supposed to study but oh well...Then Jai and Melissa came. Jai left and Jeeviyan came. Jeeviyan and Kejendran left and so, Melissa and i went for dinner at KFC in North Point. While eating, i saw Pradeep. He was looking at me as usual but i ignored him. Do you feel the pain now? Im gonna make it worse! Hmm i just slacked at home yesterday. Ahhh crap! O levels is coming closer and closer! 67 more days to go. SIGHS! I will make it! I will make myself make it!

Okkkaayyyy...so tomorrow is the day im gonna get my Tamil O level results. AND....tomorrow is also the day whereby ive got to take my O level English Orals. PRAY FOR ME PLEASEEE! Im gonna revise some more..im sooo nervous!

7:23 PM; unforgotten.Y

Today is National Day 2007...
Nothing much happened..
I had tuition in the morning,
Went for a run in the evening and.....
Watched the National Day Parade in the night.
Thats all.

On the contrary, yesterday, my school celebrated NDP O7. It was okay luh. The PA screwed up the sound system though. Almost all of us cam whored! Then i went for my class and drama clubs photo taking. After which, Keeran, Lavanya and i went to mac in Sun Plaza for a drink. Then i met Jess in North Point for lunch. We ate at Long Johns. And then...Kejendran called so we met him, Ragu, Jeeviyan, Jai, Israel and Gayathiri under one of the blocks. Then Melissa came. And we all slacked under another block while playing monopoly. Then we talked and talked and walked home around 5pm. =) Yesterady was fun! :D Here are the pictures!!!

me

Jai and i above

Ragu and i below

Ragu's NCC cap

Ragu and i under a block

Keeran and i above

Mr Teo(form teacher) and i

Joe and i

Thiru and i

Nishaa and i

Gayathiri, Melissa, Jacinta and i

11:17 PM; unforgotten.Y

Heys all!
Yesterday night, i went to the 24 hour clinic. My tummy was really hurting and yeah i got my medicine and all. And...today...i didnt go to school. Not because it was too painful or anything..but because i didnt finish what i had to do and just didnt feel like going to school. SIGHS..nevermind. I'll do studying at home then. Anyways, the doctor yesterday was young and HANDSOME! Whoots! Haha ....

Kays....im going to go out for lunch with my sister before she goes to school. Thanks to the sickness im having, i cant eat much. So we are going to delifrance to have a sandwich for lunch instead. Alright, im gonna leave now. See ya!

12:01 PM; unforgotten.Y

Me, Edward, Brenda and Cass

Nicole, Edward, Brenda and Cass

Edward cutting his cake.

Edward with cake on his face.

Edward staring at his cake??? Edward eating cake. Brenda! Cass and Nicole. Edward and his new socks.

Edward with the thong and brenda behind

Edward holding up his condom Last but not least, a part of me :D

3:28 PM; unforgotten.Y

OH MY GOSH!!!! My shorts just tore! I need to get it to the tailor like asap!!!



Okay on the 30th of July, Edward Tand turned 16! HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY EDWARD!!!



I cant remember which day it happened but it happened this week. Billy and Tong Ngan fought in class..sigh...when will they ever grow up?



I woke up at 5.45am on Thurday 2 August 2007 and decided not to go to school. I was having really bad tummy cramps. I messaged Mr Teo, took a bath and went back to bed. Woke up at 10 something am and followed my sis to Northpoint to have lunch. Met daddy on the way and had lunch together. My dad decided to send my sis to school. So i tagged along.



Sighs...something is very wrong with me. My stomach keeps getting upset. And it doesnt hurt badly...yet..its too bearable that it just irritates you....ARGH! (a damsel in destress!)



On Friday, 3 August 2007, I took my school's maths mock exam. Its actually the June 2007 O level exam paper. Fact of the day : Did you know? People in London takes their exam in June instead of in October? So Cambridge actually has to set two O level papers for a year. And thus..thats why you see a June O level paper too. =)



Wheeee! I like him. BUT....im trying to have self control. Right now, no matter what..my O levels comes first!



Speaking of O levels, my school put up a HUGE lighted up board counting down the number of days till the premier of the O's and N's. Gosh..its really scary in a way. Looking at it for a few minutes while queing up to buy lunch made my heart go kaboom kaboom! In other words, PANIC ATTACK!!!



And, im like SUPER DUPER stressed now! Time is really running short on me and ive got SO MANY things to cram into my head before the BIG O's! Sighs...And my O Level English Oral is next Monday. /13 August 2007/ And my Science Practical is coming up real soon too. I need to study my QA notes, Acids, Bases and Salts and my Salt Preparation. I CAN AND I WILL! =)



I swear i badly wanna pass and do well my O's. Once again, I CAN AND I WILL! Im gonna push myself till once im done with the VERY LAST PAPER, im gonna make sure i feel so satisfied, ill kiss someone! - OMG! Haha...



School ends at 6.30pm like EVERY Monday, Wednesday and Friday. This sucks seriously. And ive got Tuition almost everyday. SIGH! I desperately need sleep luh. I mean..i really really need sleep.



Now..time to destress abit. Mummy keeps nagging at me to study. She thinks im always on the phone and all but seriously...im not! - THIS IS WHERE I AM ANGRY! My sis keeps being really mean to me. And i hate it..THIS IS WHERE I ALSO AM ANGRY!



Last but not least, im almost done with art. This is how its gonna look like when its completely done but just that i have to cut the black parts out on black paper..=) And yes...i drew an A1 size of that picture. See ya!

8:27 PM; unforgotten.Y

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