Im a mask to the world

Thursday, February 08, 2007

On my way to school, i saw Saravanan(my b/f). So we walked to the MRT station together. Then he left and i waited for Thiru to come. We then took the MRT to Sembawang. When we were in 962, i saw HIM! I got freaking happy and was like practically cheering away cause i thought he was gonna board the bus. Instead, the bus left without him. Sigh... He talked to me yesterday!

Ms T.K. pissed me off this morning by asking me to get the backdrop for the sec4NA PTR done by today. Like HALOOOO! Im freaking hell not AnP anymore la. You dont know? BULLSHIT!

Sigh...Hui Meng, Joe, Lois and i went for ISG with Ms Kong during recess today. Hmm went quite well actually.

Tomorrow is my confession and rehearsal for my confirmation. Bryan's nick said - confirmation. its a buh bye to olss! Like whats that supposed to mean? He aint coming back? NOOOO! Then it came to me that after confirmation, i might loose some people. And then i thought...why did god bring such wonderful people into my life and now he is taking them away? In fact, he always takes the closest people away! I rather be taken away first for my own selfish needs - so that i wouldnt be left in pain. Im scared..im scared of loosing my loved ones. I DONT WANT TO! =(

These days, ive been becoming very emo. And through that, i fell in love with a song. ''Nelly Furtado - All Good Things'' Heres the lyrics...

Honestly what will become of me
I don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
We missed everything daydreaming

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end

Travelling I always stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cryI only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end

Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end

And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day until the feeling went away
And the clouds were dropping and the...
The rain forgot how to bring salvation
The dogs were barking at the new moon whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die

9:28 PM; unforgotten.Y

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Wah im feeling exhausted. Dont really feel like blogging so ill just keep it short. Was chatting with NC...had a hard time trying to find out his birthday from him. Anyways...my sister got a new job. Cool! Shes working in pilgrims the jewelry shop...doing retail. By the way...did i mention that i cut my hair? Its not VERY short but yeah. Hmmm nothing much happened today. Just that i got bullied as usual. Sunday's the big day! Kays...i better get to the homeworking mode.

8:45 PM; unforgotten.Y

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

wrsnmtemt6e m,a4em

11:26 PM; unforgotten.Y

Monday, February 05, 2007

I wish that you would stop being an ass and would start talking to me!!! I MISS YOU....

10:26 PM; unforgotten.Y

You know...i think i blogged about this before..but yeah....everyone has our own problems. Its just about how we choose to handle it. Thats just part and parcel of life.

I hate life. Why? Because...there is such thing as love, pain, feelings and time.

I love my friends to the core! They will forever be in my heart! :D

9:59 PM; unforgotten.Y

Today, school past by really FAST if you ask me. Im happy that im starting to see teachers for my ISG. Nothing much happened today. Just that i dont want to be close with her again. When i loose friends..i dont like to get them back and to trust them again.

Recently i watched this dance show. I wanna be able to dance like them. So cool!

I guess we are nothing huh? I guess we were never something. What happened to our friendship? Is it gone because you see me as a JUNIOR only? So who was telling the truth really? Im hating you soo much now. I HATE SACARSTIC PEOPLE!

I just developed a hatred for guys who actually go around smoking, drinking and beating people up. I hate gangsters. I hate people who behave like one. I hate alot of indians from my school. Thats like practically why you cant see me hanging around with any.

Sigh...i hate having a boyfriend who doesnt really love me for me and instead wants only my body. I hate the idea of me having to do my 'O' levels this year. I hate the fact that i HAVE to go to school. I hate the fact that one day i will grow up and will have to fact the world. I hate it whenever i feel like this...

Im jealous of the fact that im not talented in any way and alot of my friends are. I dont know anything. I wish my parents sent me for courses when i was younger. Why cant they send me and instead they rather send Sherman?!?!? Why is it always my mum who gives me trouble? I dont like the fact that im not preety.

I wish i actually went to some really good catholic school. I hate it being in Yishun Town. I hate it knowing that my maths tuition is gonna start in 20 minutes time. SIGH!

6:47 PM; unforgotten.Y

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Alright so this is what happened exactly on Saturday. I woke up early to meet my dad. We went to Parkway Parade to get my confirmation dress and i did end up getting one. Then Vicky joined us and we went to Plaza Singapura. Vicky brought me to This Fashion at the old macdonald house and i saw something else that i liked even more so i got that too. Soooo im gonna wear the dress i got from This Fashion instead.

Then i had to rush off to meet Cassandra, Brenda, Shannon and Edward Bengei at the Khatib MRT Station. Brenda was there early. Ermm ya and then Shannon called and said he couldnt make it. We were kinda upset becuase the whole idea of meeting was to celebrate Shannon's, Gregory's and Edward Bengei's birthday. So yeah...Roseria couldnt make it. The rest of us went to Greg's house and celebrated it there. We had Hazelnut cake. Then i had to rush off to my dad house. Edward Tang who came a little later walked me all the way to the bus stop. THANKS!

I reached my dads place around 8.30pm. From there we went to East Coast Park to celebrate my dads birthday. Then he sent my sis and i home.

Today, i met EVERYONE in church. We did the usual - went for mass, Edward, Cass, Brenda and i rushed off to buy Bryan's and supposedly Shannon's cake. We had blackforest cake. Went for class, had rehearsal and after that, we surprised Bryan with his cake in the Cathegists room. Shannon had to rush off. Damn him again! Haha. Anyways, it is Bryan's birthday. So is my dad's. Soooo.......HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BRYAN AND MY DAD! Bryan is now 16 and my dad is 51 years of age. Yeah!

After Bryan's birthday party, i rushed off as usual to my dads place. Reached there and slacked. I ate pizza and his cake for tea with all of them. And i reached home around 9pm. Yeps thats about it. Got MANY MORE birthdays coming up.

Alright. Gonna head to my bed soon. See ya and goodnight!

10:33 PM; unforgotten.Y

Friday, February 02, 2007

I had lotsa fun with drama today. Firstly, i woke up half an hour late so i took the 811 bus to Chong Pang instead of the 804 bus. On the way i met Thiru and we went to the MRT station to wait for Yin Qing. Wheee! I saw him and lots of people i know from church! Anyways yeah..i was like SLEEEEPPY during my lessons today. Dont know why but yeah. HAHA! Wait! During art lesson today..it was sooo boring, that Joe and i burst out laughing for no reason for a very LONG time. I guess we kinda irritated ALOT of people. Haha. Errm after school, i went for drama at 2pm and it lasted till 9.30pm. Left school and went home with Mizrahi, Monica and Melissa. Yeps...thats about it. Im damn tired now. Just in case i cant blog tomorrow heres my plan. Im having maths tuition in the morning, going to shop for my confirmation dress with my dad, going to Teacher Pam's house for Shannon's birthday party and then meeting my dad again for his birthday celebration. Yup...ok. See ya!

10:57 PM; unforgotten.Y

Thursday, February 01, 2007

I met Brenda today morning. Had breakfast and then i went to school. Today is kind of a sad day in a way. He isnt talking to me properly. Its not like before. He promised to be my friend and yes he still is just that he isnt like how he used to be before i told him i still like him. I really am in love with you. 3years of doing so and ive not forgotten you. Ragu has been really nice to me and telling me things and all when compared to the rest. But no one really understands. This sucks. Ive not really spoken to him much since i told him everything. Ya he is attached..and i choose to be selfish now...it SUCKS! I WANT THEM TO BREAK! I WANT HIM! Im sick and tired of waiting and waiting...my patience is only soo much. When it reaches the level..ill still continue to love him but might go mad! Damn it! Anyways..lesson time and all was fun. Its just the part whereby he was involved. Every recess and lunch and assembly's and all..ill try my best to see him as much as possible..i have to stop!

9:59 PM; unforgotten.Y