Thursday, January 04, 2007
Today is Vicky's( my step mum ) birthday. She is 33 years old. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Ok. Today i was told that im not needed in council for the secondary one orientation. Like what the hell?!?
So i went to class and, an EMBARASSING thing happened to me but like what the hell! I rather not post it in here. Yeah then i met Iffa and Shmitha during recess. While we were sitting and eating, Nikita came up to us and asked me how come im not with the councilors and i told her that they said im not needed there today. Then she said all the ex co's are there .... . And i said im not ex co anymore. Then she said i am and i gave her a confused look. And she told me think about it and went somewhere. SIGH!
I would give anything to get back my post. But HOW? What if i work really hard just to get back my post and in the end, the teachers say its impossible. Walau! Im afraid of that i guess.. This sucks la really. Im like loosing that wonderful, ever so committed and responsible side of me. I can tell that im slacking alot in terms of attitude and like i dont want that to happen but i dont feel like i can control myself in any way. I know! Ive like talked about this for like over i dont know how many times but im DEPRESSED over this.
This is ONE of the MAIN reasons why you dont see that smile across my face much nowadays. Even if you do see it, its FAKE! Never did i smile for real. I miss everything. Only i know how much sadness lies within me. I know, i always portray the happy side of me. But who ever said i am a happy person? I just dont show the sad side of me. (sigh)
Well tomorrow is my school's CCA bazaar. I dont know if im going for council or rather i dont know if council needs me tomorrow. Sounds WRONG! Even the teachers saw me and were like what are you doing there? I might not go to school tomorrow la. I see how. GIRL PROBLEM! Shit.
By the way, HE asked me to sit with him for lunch today but i was already sitting with Iffa and Shmitha. Sigh - sadness. But then...he was sitting with them. The them who i broke friendship with. So too bad. Even if i can sit with him..i wont cause they are there. =(
10:42 PM; unforgotten.Y
Christine Samantha Francis
Are you ready?
fifteen going on sixteen
indian roman catholic
YTSS
our lady star of the sea(OLSOTS)
loves
bowling. guitar. dancing. slacking. being crazy. her best friends.
wishes
to pass my 'O' levels next year,
figure myself out,
become a good person,
to be someone in life,
never to loose any of my friends,
to keep in touch with my friends for as long as possible,
to be close to god forever,
to do the right thing
