Wednesday, January 17, 2007
My dad went to the hospital on Monday. Doctor told him that hes got dengue. His blood level is supposed to be 150. When he got admitted it was 105. Then it dropped to 29 and then to 19 and now its 12. If it becomes 0, he wont live. FUCK! I cant even visit him cause im sick. If i do, he will either get worse or i will get dengue too. I love him sooo much! Ive not seen him since Thursday! I dont know what to do. Im panicking...Why must it always be me? Why?!?!?!?
There is always something bad happening in my life. First it was my friends...then Randy..then Council and my studies...and now this. Jesus where are you? I mean seriously!!! Please dont let anything happen to my dad. He means the world to me. I cant do without him. I need him! I wanna see him so badly...i wanna hug him and kiss him and hold him tight and tell him that i need him. That i love him very much! That he needs to stay strong..that he cant go! Cause im trying my very best to stay strong! I want him to get better!!!
If you are really there..PLEASE make a miracle happen! Please..take me if its possible. Just let him live! He cant go. Hes got Sherman! Hes got my sister. Hes got Vicky. Hes got me! We all love him and need him very much! I love him and need him very much! He was always there for me..so why cant i be there for him now. I need to see him! Im feeling soo much pain! I dont know what to do. I want it all to disappear..i wish nothing of this sort ever happened. Im scared to death! Im breaking down...falling apart..i need support.
I wish i could be there with him. I want to be there with him. I miss him sooo much! I cant take it anymore. I really cant. Ive been crying since 8.30pm. 1 and a half hours and ive not stop. I dont know what to do. God please help me! Please!!! Why do you always take all my loved ones away from me? I know that the next person is gonna be Jacinta. Cause she is gonna migrate. Either she or HIM when i tell him the truth. WHY?
I hate my life. LIFE SUCKS!!!!
9:40 PM; unforgotten.Y
Christine Samantha Francis
Are you ready?
fifteen going on sixteen
indian roman catholic
YTSS
our lady star of the sea(OLSOTS)
loves
bowling. guitar. dancing. slacking. being crazy. her best friends.
wishes
to pass my 'O' levels next year,
figure myself out,
become a good person,
to be someone in life,
never to loose any of my friends,
to keep in touch with my friends for as long as possible,
to be close to god forever,
to do the right thing
