Wednesday, November 29, 2006
Wah today morning i woke up and went to Pasir Ris again. Did something damn stupid. Stupid but i still liked it. Aiya i dont know whats going on with me la. Maybe its all the depression im holding onto. SIGH! I dont want to get back to this topic but i cant not do it. I cant wait to get out of YTSS and start everything anew. I wish my wish would come true.
*I WANNA DROP OUT OF SCHOOL CAUSE I HATE SCHOOL. EVERYTHING IN SCHOOL SUCKS! IM NOT EVEN WORRIED ABOUT MY STUDIES OR ABOUT THE O LEVELS NEXT YEAR. WHATS WRONG WITH ME SERIOUSLY? *I feel the change in me. Im suddenly rebelling. My attitude is starting to suck. And im hating school so much when i used to wake up every morning and be like yay must go to school today. Another day of fun. I dont say those things exactly but thats roughly how i used to think. Now its like I DONT CARE ABOUT SCHOOL. NO! IM NOT GOING! During the holidays..yes i wasnt feeling well. I had a tummy upset every morning and night. BUT i could have pushed myself to go to school and bear the pain cause i will usually push myself even when the pain is worse. But noooo! I decided to take that as a reason and skipped school for A WHOLE WEEK!
F.A.N.T.A.S.T.I.C!
I rather devote my life to *that*, church and my friends. I just wanna enjoy life and die when ive had enough. I really dont mind. I mean ive been going through such a miserable life. Whats the difference? I rahter end my life and go to god cause i really want to. I know that if i end my life on my own, ill hurt and everyone around me and also, its a sin. It may be a straight path to hell BUT im doing it cause i want to be with god where ill feel happy and protected and loved.
SIGH! Why does life have to suck soo much?
10:53 PM; unforgotten.Y
Christine Samantha Francis
Are you ready?
fifteen going on sixteen
indian roman catholic
YTSS
our lady star of the sea(OLSOTS)
loves
bowling. guitar. dancing. slacking. being crazy. her best friends.
wishes
to pass my 'O' levels next year,
figure myself out,
become a good person,
to be someone in life,
never to loose any of my friends,
to keep in touch with my friends for as long as possible,
to be close to god forever,
to do the right thing
