Im a mask to the world

Friday, October 20, 2006

Today is my schools Promotion Day. So there was no school. I woke up at 9.30am. Actually 8 something in the morning, Mr Goh Kern Hai called me to settle some things la. Then ya la.. When i woke up in the morning, i was in a really bad mood for some reason. I watched MTV and then went to bath at around 10.10am. Came out, changed, ate my 3 pancakes within 2 minutes and rushed to school. I had Mr Paul Low's talk and then the banner making for the deepa-raya concert and then Drama SYF training.

On the way, i went to the Chung Nana bookshop and bought 12 papers, 3 styrofoam boards and two red tinsels. Then i took 859 and headed for school. Reached school at 11.55am and saw Iffa. Talked to her for 10 minutes and went to the Council room where the people helping me out with the banner were. Ren Zhong and Mizrahi were there and i found out that the timing for the talk has been changed to 10am. I was like uh? I missed the course? DAMNATION!

Then Mr Yeo came to the Counil room and talked/disturbed the councilors. He saw me and was like Christine come i need to talk to you. So i went to him outside the Council room. And...
Mr Yeo : How are your results?
Me: Errm very bad...
Mr yeo: Your name was actually mentioned just now. I just want you to know that alot of teachers stood up for you. Mr Teo will be speaking to you soon and there will be a follow up so just follow up.
Me: Umm ok...
Wah he really scared me!

Nikita and Sarah then came to the council room to take pictures. I was on the verge of crying cause I was like really upset and afraid. My mum called and was like...she said im promoted thanks to the teachers. The principle actually wanted to retain me. Bloody hell! Mr Teo also promised the Principle that I WILL pass my exams next year. My mum promised my teacher the same too. DAMN! But I will most probably get sacked from council or I wont be an exco anymore in drama and in council. Fuck la all my hard work is like gone down the drain. I rather quit la! Then i went to find for Ms Chng to get the key to the Drama room. I was waiting for her outside the staff room and at that time all the teachers were on their way out of the staff room to the conference room for a meeting. They kept giving me the pathetic look, the EXTRA cheerful look and the rest ignored me. Its like EVERY SINGLE teacher knows who i am now. Then Ms Tan Ping Ping came out and gave me a scary look with a smile and was like ''Notice alot of teachers giving you this look?" And i was like ya. And all she said was "Naughty girl ah you!", smiled and walked away. After which i saw Mr Emmanuel Teo, my form teacher la. He weakly smiled at me with teary red eyes. Did he cry??? Then Mr Siau came out, saw me, went like "Eh! Naughty girl". Haha wa lau! Like what the hell?

Then i got the key and went for drama. During drama, Ms Joanne(my instructor) was like "You are the nicest girl i have ever seen!" Haha i was supposed to play this bossy bitchy role for my audition for SYF. And im a NICE person..NOT a BITCHY one. Haha well..ya. Came home with Jannah and Suhaidah. Saw Tina on the way with her mother. And here i am blogging.

Sigh im still sad la. Today is the eve of Deepavali. I dont feel like celebrating deepavali with my dad tomorrow. I feel as though i dont deserve to celebrate one bit.

Although im promoted, im still extra sad la....

9:12 PM; unforgotten.Y