Tuesday, October 10, 2006
I feel sooooo lonely!!!!
Its as though im living for nothing - theres no meaning to life!
Everything around me is soo dead....
Everything nowadays is getting soo boring...
Im feeling soo lonely, and sad and depressed and bored and i dont know la...I know i keep blogging about the same sad things but its true what?!? Thats how my life is and ive got soo many unsolved things. Obviously i will keep thinking and thinking and thinking about it all and if i cant solve whatever it is, its worse. Ill become even more depressed...
Shit la! I lost my council tie..How could i have been so careless and stupid? Where did i leave it. I realised that only after 4 freaking days!! Im frustrated. Even the council room got no more extra ties. But where the hell could my tie have gone? I think i left it somewhere in school but im not sure leh.
And i dont wanna move!!! My dad said if the problem gets worse i have to sell my house and buy one thats already been made. All we have to do is to renovate the kitchen and the toilets. What the fuck!!! He also said that it will be much smaller as it is cheaper and get a 3 room flat. Meaning 1 hall and 2 rooms? So what i have to share a room with my sister??? Nooo! I mean the age gap. How can we share a room when we cant even get along with each other? I like my room a little messy with things everywhere in a neat way such that i can grab my things and leave. My study table is always in a mess. Piles of books and papers and files and everything will be there. But i dont care.. as long as i can find my things can already. But my sister is the total opposite!
And she is gonna leave the house in like what? 5? 6 years? Shes already 21 this year and shes gonna get married soon and all. So im gonna be stuck with my mum in the same house till i get married. Wah thats like a nightmare i tell you! Toot sial. Its all my mums fault. It always is. Why cant she be more cooperative?
Living with my dad is like impossible cause his house is already too squeezy. Theres him, vicky, sherman, panja and murphy. Plus vickys side will go there and stay there for a while once in a while too. Bloody hell sial!
And my sister has a chinese boyfriend. Im happy for her la. But then shes already talking about marriage. Its too fast! Im not ready to leave her! I know very well that im gonna be depressed when she gets married. Cause i wont have a sister around the house anymore...Haiz..
Dont you ever feel that sometimes life is moving at a rapidly fast rate and it doesnt wait for you? If you are stuck somewhere behind, you will just have no other choice but to pick yourself up, adapt to the changes, stay strong and move on too no matter how hard it is.
10:13 PM; unforgotten.Y
Christine Samantha Francis
Are you ready?
fifteen going on sixteen
indian roman catholic
YTSS
our lady star of the sea(OLSOTS)
loves
bowling. guitar. dancing. slacking. being crazy. her best friends.
wishes
to pass my 'O' levels next year,
figure myself out,
become a good person,
to be someone in life,
never to loose any of my friends,
to keep in touch with my friends for as long as possible,
to be close to god forever,
to do the right thing
