Today is the start of my End Of The Year Exams.
Did my English just now..
Wahh i dont know what to say..
Its either its me or the paper was tough..
Scared ah!
Im afraid i cant pass my English.
Im afraid that my compo and letter writting got alot of mistakes which usually happens when im freaking nervous which i was just now, and im afriad that i just didnt answer the comprehension right.
Sometimes i just wish i stayed in Normal Acade instead.
I still remember when i was in secondary one...it was the last day of school. I went to Mrs Samantha Ong and asked her to sign my year book. And she told me this exactly, '' Sometimes its better to stay in Normal Acade and top the whole cohord than to go to Express and struggle.'' I chose to ignore that but now i know what she means. Its really not that i cant do it. I can..just that i dont want to..stupid la. Ms Sara told me this, '' I know you can do it. I believe in you and i hope you will not let me down.'' Wah...Damn demoralising la...
Tomorrow is my Tamil paper one and paper two.
I kinda gave up on Tamil for the time being.
Its useless la really..
Its kinda too late to do anything about it cause i know myself well enough and even if i start now, whats the difference? I may improve but will i actually pass my 'O' levels next year? NO! Its much too late to do anything now..
Especially with my mum!!!
She just dont understand la..
Hate her...
Not just her..my dad too
A life here has been ruined and its becoming more and more worse as the days pass by..No one understands this..seriously..
Nothing seems to be working out..
Sorry but i think im currently going through depression...
What i need now is a friend...
I wish i could say it all out but its still way too personal to be written even here..i want to say it all out to ***. But its useless..no one knows about this except for me. And it sucks cause i need to let it out to *** and not to anyone else cause i cant. Not only is it useless but i might just lose it all. And i dont want to. Im desperate not to.. Its pointless really..only a miracle can help me now.
But why does it have to be me?
Why did i have to?
How did i in the first place?
Whats wrong with me???
Argh!...
Frustrated already...
Just wish i could be heard and taken seriously..
I was already told yet its soo hard to forget someone especially if you like the person alot...
I may actually sound childish and stubborn but i cant help it..
Save me from this misery...
